Trusting The Inner Voice
As you know, I’m a big believer in living by my inner voice.
Most of the time it’s easy. I know what it feels like when it responds to me.
What yes feels like, what no feels like and what wait feels like.
The challenging part about living this way is that when I want something really bad, I want reassurance from the Universe that I’m listening clearly.
Here’s an experience that I’ve gone through for the past two years that I know a lot of you are going through also.
I didn’t have a plan for the future…
When I closed the Center at the end of December, 2009, I was burned out. Adrenal Fatigue, my doctor called it. My inner voice had guided me to close it because of the amount of stress I was going through and as bummed out as I was about the decision, the guidance felt right. We closed it down; I came home and literally slept for two months. I had no energy to work or see people. I didn’t have a plan for the future and didn’t want a plan.
I got behind in two house payments but by the 5th of March, I was back in the saddle working again and called my mortgage company to tell them I had the money for January and February.
“Too late” they said. “We’re going to start foreclosure proceedings.”
I told them that this was outrageous since I had been on time with my payments for the last six years. They didn’t care. They said the word foreclosure once again and told me I’d be hearing from them.
It was unbelievable. If you’ve read my book Look for the Good and You’ll Find God, you know the story of my sweet home. I turned to my inner voice for guidance and immediately felt calmness so I knew it was going to be okay.
That was two years ago, and what an interesting ride it’s been. I was turned down twice for a new loan, I had a process server at my door with the date of the sale of my house, and I’ve attended their meetings, talked to several representatives at the company many who didn’t have a clue as to what was going on.
A sweet young man stops by every couple weeks to make sure I still live here and haven’t skipped town. I’ve heard horror stories from other homeowners who’ve lost their house after 25 years because they got behind in payments due to illness or a death in the family. And the whole while this has been going on, my inner voice has remained that steady calmness.
People have advised me as to what I should be doing but my inner voice always told me to chill out and wait.
Sometimes it got scary because I didn’t know what fine meant. The newscasters weren’t reporting anything fine about foreclosures. The world wasn’t saying anything fine about mortgage companies. It was all horror stories.
Looking back on all of it, I’m glad I had a solid trusting relationship with my inner voice before this challenge came along. This truly was a big one for me because I’ve always felt so blessed to have my home and the thought of losing it again could have been pretty overwhelming had I not had my inner voice continually reassuring me that it was all going to work out fine.
Last Friday, December 30th, my mortgage company called to say that the third attempt at getting a loan was accepted and that I could keep my house. The other part of this great news was that my payment would be half of what it used to be!
It was not only fine…it was EXCELLENTLY FINE.
I’ve seen the gyrations other homeowners have gone through to keep their homes. I’ve heard the fear, the anger and the rage they’ve gone through in losing their homes. There were times I was tempted to do all the things people suggested I do, but my inner voice just kept saying, “Wait–it will be fine,” and it was.
It’s a brand new year. A brand new beginning for all of us. If you haven’t made the switch from listening to your head to listening to your inner voice, now’s the time. If you aren’t sure what that even means, get a copy of my book called A Still Small Voice; and read it a few times. This is the year that spirituality explodes so please join us.