It’s a good thing…….sorta
Something has been telling me to write this blog for several days and I keep ignoring it. I don’t want to write about it. It’s one of those things in life where you think if I don’t acknowledge it, it will go way, but in this case, it’s not going anywhere.
It’s lack of self-confidence, and it has been my middle name since the day I was born. Whenever I’ve written books, that little voice that says who do you think you are to write a book, never shuts up. When people sign up to take my classes or attend a lecture, I’m always amazed. On meditation nights when I look into 50-60 faces, I’m still stunned that they showed up.
A few months ago my friend Wes Hamilton was reading my numerology chart and we were talking about opportunities coming up. I told him I have a very difficult time promoting myself and my work. I watch others do it and wonder what it is they have that I don’t have in order to be like that. Wes pointed out that in my chart I was born with ZERO confidence and that it’s something I will always struggle with.
I can’t tell you how refreshing that was to hear. Finally there is an explanation for why I am the way I am – why every ounce of self promotion is very difficult or why I’m always shocked when opportunities come my way.
I’m not telling you this so that you feel sorry for me. I’m telling you this because there’s a silver lining to all of this and also because I know I’m not the only one on this beautiful blue planet that deals with this every day.
I was talking to my friend Kass about working on overcoming this and she suggested looking at it from a totally different perspective. She said to look at it from a positive perspective. I’m always thrilled when a new opportunity comes to me. It’s always a surprise, nothing that was expected and there’s always a sense of gratitude when something wonderful happens.
It’s my inner voice that’s gotten me where I am today. I’ve had a lot of great successes and wonderful opportunities come my way and it’s because I’ve always asked for guidance with my career and personal life and it’s always come. When good things come, I’m always humbled by them and I feel bad for people who don’t have that sense of wonderment that I do.
I’ve seen too many people throughout my career whose egos get so whacked out, they lose all sense of gratitude and just keep expecting more and more. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) there’s never enough and they eventually crash and burn.
So for all of us folks on this planet who were born with ZERO confidence, yes it sucks, and yes it’s hard, but we are constantly amazed at good things and live with a sense of humility all the time.
Living with a sense humility is not such a bad thing. We can always work on improving confidence. Working harder at believing in myself has always been one of my goals.
To all of you that can totally relate to this, let’s make 2016 the year we start believing in ourselves all the while living in the wonderment that someone chose us.
And now I will share this with my friend Leigh to see if she thinks this is too egotistical before pushing the send button.
It occurs to me that you might want to talk to Wes Hamilton about your numerology chart. He has helped me tremendously and I’m very confident he can help you with whatever issues you have. Wes@weshamilton.com