It’s a good thing…….sorta
Something has been telling me to write this blog for several days and I keep ignoring it. I don’t want to write about it. It’s one of those things in life where you think if I don’t acknowledge it, it will go way, but in this case, it’s not going anywhere.
It’s lack of self-confidence, and it has been my middle name since the day I was born. Whenever I’ve written books, that little voice that says who do you think you are to write a book, never shuts up. When people sign up to take my classes or attend a lecture, I’m always amazed. On meditation nights when I look into 50-60 faces, I’m still stunned that they showed up.
A few months ago my friend Wes Hamilton was reading my numerology chart and we were talking about opportunities coming up. I told him I have a very difficult time promoting myself and my work. I watch others do it and wonder what it is they have that I don’t have in order to be like that. Wes pointed out that in my chart I was born with ZERO confidence and that it’s something I will always struggle with.
I can’t tell you how refreshing that was to hear. Finally there is an explanation for why I am the way I am – why every ounce of self promotion is very difficult or why I’m always shocked when opportunities come my way.
I’m not telling you this so that you feel sorry for me. I’m telling you this because there’s a silver lining to all of this and also because I know I’m not the only one on this beautiful blue planet that deals with this every day.
I was talking to my friend Kass about working on overcoming this and she suggested looking at it from a totally different perspective. She said to look at it from a positive perspective. I’m always thrilled when a new opportunity comes to me. It’s always a surprise, nothing that was expected and there’s always a sense of gratitude when something wonderful happens.
It’s my inner voice that’s gotten me where I am today. I’ve had a lot of great successes and wonderful opportunities come my way and it’s because I’ve always asked for guidance with my career and personal life and it’s always come. When good things come, I’m always humbled by them and I feel bad for people who don’t have that sense of wonderment that I do.
I’ve seen too many people throughout my career whose egos get so whacked out, they lose all sense of gratitude and just keep expecting more and more. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) there’s never enough and they eventually crash and burn.
So for all of us folks on this planet who were born with ZERO confidence, yes it sucks, and yes it’s hard, but we are constantly amazed at good things and live with a sense of humility all the time.
Living with a sense humility is not such a bad thing. We can always work on improving confidence. Working harder at believing in myself has always been one of my goals.
To all of you that can totally relate to this, let’s make 2016 the year we start believing in ourselves all the while living in the wonderment that someone chose us.
And now I will share this with my friend Leigh to see if she thinks this is too egotistical before pushing the send button.
It occurs to me that you might want to talk to Wes Hamilton about your numerology chart. He has helped me tremendously and I’m very confident he can help you with whatever issues you have. Wes@weshamilton.com
Thanks Echo for shedding some light on zero confidence. It’s fun to ponder things like that. Guess it’s not such a bad thing after all. HUMILITY and a sense of GRATITUDE are its rewards; I can live with that; it makes us better & nicer people and makes a better world too. And where would many of us be without our INTUITION ! I can’t live without mine, at least well. You’ve put the word on the map. Thanks for that too ! ♥️
This is Diana your nurserymate. (We were born the same, year, same day, same hospital an hour apart and I met you 40 years later). I wonder if that is in my numerology chart too. I have the same issue myself. I think it is why I’m a writer too. I can communicate better in writing. I was amazed to know that you are not confident. You have always been a natural teacher with your sense of humor, kindness, and enthusiasm. You changed my entire life after I learned about healing…. I tell more about that in my new book that won’t be out until next year.
Oddly, I had a bad experience like you did last year when people were judging psychic gifts as evil. I was going to publish PROMISE OF ANGELS in September (our birth month) and then the publisher announced I could not use her logo because in other words her “clients are conservative Christians.” She did say she would do it under another logo but I’m back to saving money to self-publish. Everyone is saying to do a Kickstarter campaign and of course I have been procrastinating because of …what you said….no confidence.
So, don’t change. Your sincerity and appreciation for your success is a sign of how spiritual you really are. Yes, next year is going to be AWESOME, Nurserymate. Awesome.
Thanks for writing about the ” no confidence” struggle. Made me feel that I’m not the only one! Yeah!
Love what you talk about! Haven’t met you yet, but I hope to someday. Someday I’ll make it to one of your Saturday’s.
Read a couple of your books. Love them.
Keep up the great work!
Beany (Colleen McDonald)
It is truly remarkable, dear Echo…thank you for this incredibly timely post. Just this morning I was thinking about this! Those of us who are blessed (I do believe) to be able to feel such gratitude and humility…well, I suppose one counterpoint is an innate lack of confidence.
Certainly something to work on, and I have been for many, many years as well. It’s what has held me back from following many of dreams…the question of “who do I think I am?”…is that ever familiar! 😉
You have a tremendously generous and loving presence, so it’s hard to imagine that lack of confidence is something you struggle with…but I hope you know just how much you are loved and oh so needed.
Much Light, Love, and many Blessings….
Thanks for your words Echo. They make sense and give me insight. I too am a member of the Zero Confidence Club. Zero is the start of all knowledge. It encompasses all things.
Hi Echo, yes I believe that I’m one of them zero confident person, I never had much confidence in my self, I was alway shy and didn’t speak up much fraid of giving the wrong answer, but now I have over come a lot of my fear but I’m still very caution of doing or saying the wrong thing. I think your wonderful and whole hearty trust in you , I love all your books and one day would love to come take classes with you if you have room and board tehe. Have a blessed holiday Connie