This morning when I woke up, I felt elated and so happy that I could have hugged the whole world and still had more left to give. It was a wonderful feeling. It scared me just a bit because it felt a little like the manic part of depression (I’ve been labeled manic depressive or bi-polar). I had Andrea Bocelli blasting on the cd player and felt like I could jet propel myself over to my morning appointment, but I took the car instead.

The 8th session was very nice. It evened out my manic state and I felt grounded again. Today’s session was mellower. I only did one two hour session and that felt right. Like it’s time to let my brain integrate everything it’s been through this week.

You can see on their graphs how the brain is changing and that is so fascinating to me. I not only can feel it internally, but I can see it externally.

Overall, I’m much calmer today. Slept good last night compared to some of the other nights this week that were kind of all over the place. My dreams were mellower last night. I’ve had alot of dreams this week that didn’t make sense. Usually I can interpret my dreams pretty good but haven’t been able to with the dreams this week. Paulette and Alina both told me that this is all part of the process.

Driving is less stressful for me and that’s been an issue of mine for years. I haven’t driven on the freeways/highways since 1979. Talk about feeling un-safe. That is definitely one of the biggest places that I feel un-safe. If I ride with someone, I’m usually staring at the floor. I’ll be anxious to see if this changes with the changes in my brain patterns. My body is still only craving protein and veggies. Sugar has definitely taken a back seat to what I’m eating.

The last protocol we did today had to do with goals and my goals have really improved this week because I no longer am feeling like I can’t accomplish certain things. I set some goals for myself that I would never have set, or let’s say may have set, but would not have believed I could accomplish them. The higher goals I’m setting now, I’m believing I can achieve them. It’s sad to think of how many years I’ve wasted going in circles………..but then again, the timing had to be right on all of it and I truly believe the timing is perfect now.

Another plus is that this opens up your creativity more, so I stopped at the fabric store on the way home to sew some fleece tops. I’m feeling very creative and can’t wait to get at it, so I’m going to sign off for now and will be back in touch Monday. Tomorrow is integrating day. It’ll be great.