I’m told that my mind jumps from one thing to the next in a matter of seconds because I have Gemini rising. Whatever the reason is, I can tell you one thing. It’s very annoying (but entertaining). So here we are, 12 days from Christmas and my mind is all over the place.
The Center is closing in 18 days. I was over there yesterday, taking things off walls, reminiscing as I held each item in my hand. Several times I caught myself wondering if this was really the next step in my life. Letting go of the Center and all that’s in it. Letting go of the dreams I’ve had for years of creating a safe, spiritual place for people to come to. And every time I wondered, I heard my inner voice give me that quiet confirmation that I have felt so many times.
Many many times throughout my life, my inner voice has reminded me of a commitment I made to Jesus as a little girl and that was that if he ever showed up at my door, (like he did the disciples) and asked me to let go of everything and follow him, (as he did the disciples) I WOULD.
I’ve always lived my life with that sense that I needed to be foot loose and fancy free so to speak, in order to follow the guidance I received from within. And closing the Center is another one of those “closing the door” experiences in my life.
I remember thinking as a kid that I KNEW this was how I was supposed to live my life, no matter how much I wanted to hang on to relationships and material things that I had outgrown.
But here I am, at 61 years old (can’t be) and I’m doing it again. People ask me what’s next and as I’ve told my students many times, the new plan has not been disclosed yet. The guidance I get is finish up what’s on my plate ie; close the Center, finish the new ghost book, continue to stay on top of my health (very sensitive Virgo system) do Christmas and wait.
And this is where I have trouble with my Gemini mind. It races to make a plan. Wants a plan. Thinks it will die without a plan. “Please Echo, make a plan. It’s irresponsible to live without a plan. blah, blah, blah.”
This is actually the magical part. The part where I tame my Gemini mind to focus on what’s in front of me ie, baking, shoveling, feeding the cat, cleaning the house, blogging more, taking out the garbage, don’t slip on the ice, answer my emails, set up appts., eat gluten free, call mom, write, get new tires, call my son, water the plants, feed the squirrels, birds and bunnies and watch NCIS, take a nap.
AND DON’T MAKE A PLAN. Listen for the plan. Listen.
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