Remember how your body feels after you’ve worked out for the first time in a long time?
That’s how my brain felt today after session 6. Like I had been at the brain gym all morning. They do these different protocols each time you have a session and today really felt like it stretched my brain in places it hadn’t gone before. It was an odd sensation. I actually felt a bit loopy. Giggly.
After an hour break, I went back in for session 7 and the feelings inside of my head felt more grounded. More mellow.
There is no doubt in my mind something very significant and GOOD is happening in my brain, my attitude, the way I see things and definitely how I’m feeling.
I had a bunch of energy after today’s sessions, so I cleaned my mom’s old apartment like a mad woman. It felt great to get the exercise.
One shift I noticed this morning when I looked out at the snow us that I felt less fearful about winter. Normally I love winter. I’m a very good hibernator. I love to stay indoors and sew or bake. It’s a great time to go within and spend lots of quiet time with my inner voice. Wear lots of layers of clothes and take a late afternoon nap with my cat. The older I’ve gotten the more I’ve appreciate it. But for some reason, the thought of this winter has made me feel anxious, ill at ease. I’ve tried reading the weather but I seem to be blocked and that’s usually an indication that it’s going to be a doozey of a winter.
When I came out of today’s session, I noticed the fear of the chill in the air wasn’t there and I’ve felt “even” all afternoon. That’s a very noticeable change from the way I have been feeling about the weather.
I wish I could tell the whole world about this. I’ve been thinking about this Brain work all day and it makes so much sense to me. I’ve done most of the emotional work over the years in therapy, but these old patterns still creep back into my life. I try to keep an eye out for them but they’ve become more subtle over the years.
This brain work feels like my brain really is balancing out and these subtle little triggers are going away.
I can also report that on the sugar front, I’ve noticed quite a change there. I’m definitely craving protein, not sugar. Don’t get me wrong. I still love my dark chocolate, but I don’t think about it now which is very unusual.
Tomorrow I have session #8 and I take a break on Sunday.
I’ll keep you posted on the continuing changes taking place in this brain of mine. It’s really cool.
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